after the first time i should have let go, but im stubborn, didn't know/ what to do.
thought i had you, but we were untrue, unfaithful, couldnt't/ handle the waters.
drowning in your love, don't taste better than the/ cyanide in my lungs.
how sad that you wasted this love when it was ripe and ready,
you/ can't carry a heart this heavy and ask not to/ fall.

and on the church steps, sing hallelujah, you don't believe in god, it / (hallelujah) meant nothing to ya.
you love your love, but you had enough, the hymns they hold you to your / words.
me too,/ i think i had enough, i think i must have saw your love for what/ it/ was.
my loneliness ain't killing me, but darling i think you done your job/
you're doin better than what it's done to /me.

i remember, i, i, i remember my first love. /oh i remember my first love.
way it felt to, fall apart and strum the strings of an unsung/ truth.
oh, no it won't, leave me /alone no more.
i'm stuck on a ride that don't wanna let me off,/
i'd jump but i don't wanna/ hurt myself.

so many things that you wanna hold on to i guess im saying you dont have to/ stay
if there was something i could deny from you, its that the world aint ready for another/ broken heart
let you go, i don't need anouther/ pound on my shoulder.
guess now we're like bulls in china shops/
can't control this we're out of luck.

i wanna know, what i was holding on to. (2x)