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Complaint Number 89

from O! Scar on My Heart by Jan Dulay

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written in 2016 (for YngDrk)

i think i love the emptiness and imperfection of this track the most out of all of them. i didn't count when i was playing the piano (my choppy piano skills) and i think that it was for the best. this song reflects the kind of harshness that you feel when you think you're butting into a friendship that you were never meant to be a part of. i know it seems like it's about a romantic love but this is about a platonic friendship that i had that made its way to the gutters because of how horrible we all were to each other and how i saw that the others were better off without me and how it felt better to not know them at all because i was thinking about how much it would hurt to end the friendship if i had known them like they were the back of my hand. it's like losing a limb versus getting a paper cut, i'm cool with paper cuts but i like my limbs.

for a friend who loved a friend, in the wake of my embarrassment of returning over and over again like a f*ckin frisbee.

fave line: the whole damn thing.

lyrics

at least i never loved you like he loved you/i don't have room for embarrassment in me/anymore than a wicked tongue and a complaint/i never wore your sweater the way they did/seems to me like all the pain isn't worth it/but why do i keep coming back/my brain won't take another second but my heart/is searching for a way to let you in

but i won't cos im not foolish/no i won't go and do this to MYSELF/i love me more than i could ever need this
so i won't cos ive been thru this/here's the door/i wont leave it open anymore

at least i never knew you like he did/said so easily so what's the problem/impressions don't much no more to me/everyone they look the same still/i never knew your lips the way they did/lucky cos it seems like it's too much/a crumb it falls a cookie in a jar/my hands they crumble when they know that you're not far/so go go go get the hell away

but you won't tho ur not foolish/think you're hiding but you'd do this/it's a shame you couldn't ever need this
and you won't cos you've been thru this/show me the door/i won't fall anymore

oh can you say goodbye/but can you say goodbye

losin myself cos i just dont know what to say

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from O! Scar on My Heart, released May 29, 2016

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Jan Dulay San Francisco, California

JD is a musician, sound engineer/designer, from the Bay Area. They do not make a lot of music anymore but are trying to write the musicial living in their head.

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